the greatFox   mAte  
(4 song demo EP)

a vocal musicdisk in fasttracker II module format.


please play in fasttracker 2.08 or modplug player.  some or all songs
will not sound as intended in mikit or winamp.  actually, they sound 
like a bomb hit them.  so play them in ft2 or modplug player. 

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1.     1synd.xm       "syndrome"
2.     2letus.xm      "let us alone"
3.     3iflife.xm     "if life"
4.     4devils.xm     "devil's arms"

all songs written, composed, mixed, tracked and produced by
t. guilmette.  all vocal samples and vocals by t. guilmette.
copyright &copy; 1998 by t. guilmette and dreadnaut productions.

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this is the second greatFox musicdisk, released on august 23, 1998.
the first disk, "cloNe", consisted of 1997 instrumental works.  this
one includes all vocal tracks, hence the large filesize of the tracks.
this release is exactly the same as you would hear as an a&r person
at a record label.  as is, this is the current greatFox demo for the
purpose of procuring a record label to represent the greatFox, when 
you play these tracks in order of number.

"syndrome"
this one took a very long time to get out of my head and into the 
tracker, and i am not completely pleased with the result.  but.. there
it is.  in my head, much of the chords are acoustic guitar and there
is a live band present.  much like trevor horn's work for seal.  
this song stems from my own sense of guilt from being a healthy person,
as in not sick ever and no conditions of mental or physical health,
save one (can't drink caffeine.  hehe, deal with THAT, why don't you?)
so this song is written from my feelings of guilt but also because
people take their good health for granted.  pay attention and respect
those who have to work past themselves to make it through the day.  
they have to deal with a lot more than those who are "normal".  this 
song is for all of you who have the "syndrome".

"let us alone"
this is my most personal song yet.  again it is written due to personal
experiences but it is meant to connect with any other person who has
had similar problems. 
this song is about my significant other, and how a person related to 
this person is trying to keep us apart.  it is speaking directly to
this person in regards to my significant other.
but this song was written and applies to anyone who has had societal
bias, fear or prejudice come in the way of love.  it's not a pretty
sight.

"if life"
this one is my most hypocritical, which figures as it is a positive
song, and my only positive song.  looking back at this, i don't know
what i was thinking.  
this song was written when i was feeling a lot of pain from other 
people i know.  problems they were having at the time.  and i wanted
to make them feel better.  so i wrote this.  this song tells you that
even though you have a lot of problems and everything seems to go wrong
sometimes, it's not worth doing something drastic or blowing up about 
it.  if life just gets too hard...  just dont let it get to you.
the song is hypocritical because since i wrote it, i still have not
ever taken it to heart.

"devil's arms"
a tribute to the power of mood and how mood controls everything you 
are.  this was composed in the truck on the way to work one day as
i thought about a particularly bad temper tantrum i had the day before.
periodically i am stressed out due to social interaction and work, 
and it manifests itself in a tantrum.  i don't hurt anyone, just 
objects and sometimes myself (on accident).  i think to date this is
my 5th mouse i have bought for my computer.  they are just too 
convenient to smash.
anyway, this song is about how mood controls me and how it puts me in
a sort of devil's arms.  the "you" in the song refers to everyone 
else whose moods control them.  we are all in the same arms, and they 
are very big indeed.

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this disk was composed entirely on the fasttracker 2.08 module tracker.
the vocals were sampled into cooledit pro.  the machine used is a 
packard bell c110 p120 32MB awe32.  the mic used is the standard 
packard bell/creative labs microphone.  well, what do you want, i am
broke.

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"syndrome"
words and music by t. guilmette

excuse me mr. violin let me tell you about my life   about my life
you think your petty chores and troubles qualify you in strife   so much strife
well let me tap you on your privileged shoulder look at what you see   what you see
what do your little tribulations compare to what is built in me   built in me

i have the syndrome
i cannot walk   i cannot sleep
everything hurts to me

everything you take for granted everyday i have to fight   always fight
imagine what you'd have to do just to make it through to the night   to the night
so stuff your chubby self and throw your little problems to the wind   to the wind
what i have to do to face another day you couldnt begin   couldnt even begin

i'll see better on the night side

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"leave us alone"
written by t. guilmette

i'm sure i go against your sensibilities and purity
i'm everything that you're afraid of, the dirty scum of society
you'd like to change me, change who i am and go away
but you can't dismiss me, no, i'm here to stay

can't you see who i'm in love with?
can't you see who i'm in love with?
can't you see?
why can't you just let us be?

everything you see in me, warning bells go off in your head
but the more you try and push me back, the closer i come instead
i'm not going to stay away from the one i love because of you
it's too late for your tactics now, there's nothing you can do

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"if life"
written by t. guilmette

crudely-designed marked chemical stains
actions gone but thought remains
through everyday it's all the same
energy lost but nothing is gained
you try so hard to deal with you
racing fears and self-doubt anew
from fertile soil bitter flowers grew
nothing in life remains true

if life just gets too hard
don't let it get to you

but through all of this there has to be
a shining stone in this black i see
there has to be some hope for me
crumpling stone on wounded knee
and then i crack and stand alone
i'll challenge you i won't atone
i've found within new strength has grown
and look at these bright new seeds that i've sewn

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"devil's arms"
written by t. guilmette

the new year begins with new and sharp emotions from my mind
strange thoughts and fears intensely growing more as passes time
i strive again just when i thought i had myself explained
im starting over again just struggling to stay maintained

and i was lost in devil's arms (3x)
and i was lost with you

i feel helpless as a child and sometimes as a child is what i am
my mood and temper owns me and sometimes i dont really give a damn
i want to smash the foot of my boot into a condescending patronizing face
and punch a hole in all the walls of every fucking side of this place

but sometimes i just lay here and cry
i dont know where it comes from and why
someone protect me from this life
from all the happens and what might

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the greatFox is looking for representation, promotion and reproduction
in a professional studio environment (aka he is looking for a record
deal).  if you are an a&r rep and are interested in this music or if
you know someone who would be able to help, please contact the greatFox
directly on the greatFox webpages below or by email below.

the greatFox is currently represented by hyper productions, 
overseen by the owner, dj hype (jason kidd), aka the american dj hype.

thanks for listening!

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greetings to exiles and efnet #trax.

shouts to:
absolute0   adamwest   anodyne   autojack   beek   blacknova   broam
braynded   corpse   castman   chamcsi   chimera   clvoyant   circedge
code-x   cyclonik   deezay   druidd   emppter   ender42   figment   
kidx3m   krest   lizard   lugnut   maim   marcopolo   mazedude   
mindfuck   morrow   mutant   polvo   psykoholk   punkk   rs3   snuff   
spawn   spectral   tgryphon   totoman   wickedgod   zeromous

special greetings to wolfbane  ookami  slyfox  velox  ph8lwolf  bcdog
snoman  ssthisto  nuwisha  winntboy

and a very special thanks and appreciation to delphis, my favorite 
dolphin.  i love you jeremy.  you and my music are the only reasons i 
have for being here.

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http://goddess.coe.missouri.edu/~braynded/fox

braynded@goddess.coe.missouri.edu


txt file written by t. guilmette.

(p.s. if you read this far, you're a NUT i tell you!  a NUT!  SNORT.)

(p. p. s. if you're one of those who hate my voice and think i should
get a singer, fuck you.  only i can do my own songs justice.)

 