beyond all that


we're stressin;
these days all our minds our messin
I can't get a job worth a damn worth a blessin
I'm fiending on alcohal, tryin to smoke it all
my life is the plate, God smashed it and broke it all. 
Hand me the tylenol, I'm resorting to theft
or to sess; these boys front face till they have no face left
I'll be the best man in wasteland and wait for this date man
I've been going ape shit over this mad escape plan
but what the hell's left in the time I got cleft 
from my life in twenty years I'll be 39 and outta time
So I gotta rhyme to say I'm at the end of my line,
I can't cry, I gotta lie just to make my next dime. 
I continue to fiend on; celestine - I'll dream on; 
this bullshit world got me curled and atrophied
Its like I'll never find a woman, I don't plan to leave a seed
ill mental slums have been codemned, I had to sell the deed. 
but I'll be here for you cause you were here for me
I never needed no other cause the world was fucked to me
to you I layed my trust down and you made my smile frown
I never had that chance to give you my soul, thats what counts.

but when the rainy season looms dark in the sky the weather 
turns evil like black leather; remember me.

and when you lay in the dark of the night and the shadows bring
the nightmares to life; remember me.

when you walk down the street of life with no one to guide you remember
who's beside you; remember me. 

and when you're laying alone in your sorrow thinking what the hell 
happened to tomorrow; remember me.

I could never hurt you; God you were my virtue
if I hated you its because I loved you with my pain. 
this game is fixed and we've been thrown into the mix
I lost you and  so I bleed, there's no reason for this
and that one, the sun will come up tomorrow
tommorrow but fuck it cause tonight I'll drown my sorrow
and you know it all, the alcohal the pain and the drain
thats stained in my brain since the day that you came.
my intelligence is aesthetic, I'm no academic
so this is what that feels like, where the fuck's a paramedic?
Downward spiral, diagnosed to cause my harm
thats when I played with razor blades, to decorate my arm
Last days of earth; I said it before so welcome to the end
the stormclouds have gathered, I fear what you forfend
I'm sorry it had to end this way cause tommorrow isn't coming
you had your chance today, my anger sent you running
I don't dare dream of you, I don't think I'm worth it
but I'll keep watching because I won't let you hurt 
nobody knows the anger inside me
I'll be the nicest guy; just don't dare defy me
try me; you're already half way there
reach behind my eyes and feel brains cells care
about you; I thought I'd never have to doubt you
but if this is what it means I'll move along without you. 












